Diary posts: 10-21-2007 & 10-25-2007

10-21-2007
Just your average day, up until about 1 PM. Again with the nosebleeds!!! 

10-25-2007
4 days until I turn 23! My first bday on my own. Grandma sent me $100, and my uncle sent me a $15 Starbuck’s card. On the night of the 23rd, I noticed Vince had sent a MySpace message that morning and I did not receive it until later in the day, around 6 PM. It was decided that we were not making any headway in our relationship and the best course of action would be to remain friends. Once reading this I became very heartbroken, full of sadness and tears, although I knew it was coming. It was a very depressing evening. That night as I was getting ready for bed, I had moved my slippers and jacket to my bedroom, on the floor, near where I would get out of bed. It has been very cold in the mornings, So I have been thinking ahead and plotting for when I get up the next morning lol. I went to bed around 10 or 10:30 PM. I felt like I was moving around all night, including the feeling of walking, moving my legs a lot. I thought I was just tossing and turning, but something was wrong. I remember being in a ‘metallic’ hallway, staring at a very large and imposing door, with etchings all over it, although I can’t remember what they were. The door was dark colored, with even darker etchings, which made seeing said etchings very difficult to see. The hallway, besides being metallic and cold looking (and yes I remember being cold all night as well, as if I was never covered up  ), with metal ‘hatch’ type flooring, and light underneath the hatching. I just stood there staring at the door, I do not remember anything else. The rest of the night was very…active to say the least, I felt as if I kept moving around all night (as previously stated). When I managed to wake up, it was about 9 AM and still cold in the trailer. I scoot off the side of my bed and put my jacket on, but I could not find my slippers. I could have sworn I put them beside my bed, along with the jacket. I stumbled out of my bedroom confused and found them in the living room, near the front door. This confuses me. If I went anywhere why didn’t I take my jacket? Did I not have time? As for going to bed depressed as well…I woke up with the feeling that everything was OK and that I didn’t have to worry about it. I felt more at peace about the whole situation, and I was mellow. I was not depressed nor upset about it anymore.