Diary of 10-13-2007

10-13-2007
I was too tired to write anymore last night. Had some weird things happen while talking to another experiencer. He had footage of what he thought were UFOs, or some kind of craft. He sent me the video and I could find them pretty easily. I finally told him about my dream too.
It is a very long conversation and will not post it publicly without his permission. A lot of very screwed up things happened during the course of the IM session mainly involving my PC and images wouldn't show. the IM doesn’t do all the “wtf” moments justice. After I finished talking to him, I went to bed. I could hear all kinds of noises outside my place, but I managed to finally sleep. When I sleep, lately I’ve only been sleeping under the throw, not under the covers. I don’t normally toss and turn enough to completely throw the throw off of me 100%, normally I’ll wake up with it bundled around my middle, with my feet and calves exposed. I woke up around 5 or 5:30 this morning, and the throw was in a crumpled heap next to me, and I was laying on almost the extreme left of the bed. It was abnormally bright outside for being 5 AM. I think maybe the cold woke me up. I kind of freaked out, and then looked at my cell phone, which I was laying on. After sighing at the time, I moved the throw back on me and fell back asleep. -_-
I had a very (for lack of a better word) f-d up realization occur to me, and I shared it with my best friend B:
Me: you know what's so f-d up? ok take a look at the dinosaurs, never
knew what hit them, right? They were not self aware. Their world was
eating and sleeping etc etc.
All of a sudden, BAM they all die off… but us, we're smart; we know
what's going on…
We're more in touch with what's going on in the outside, they forget
about themselves
you know? Friends all over the globe, life is more than eating
sleeping etc, it's much more than that right? We're able to see the
stars through telescopes and study the moon and other planets so we
know what's up we know we're going..
B: and yet we f*** up more than any other creature
Me: if it is indeed a doomsday scenario we know we're going to die.
(referring to 2012)and mass extinction, do you think to make room for
a new species?
B: yeah
Me: we know we're reaching an end; nothing else on this planet can do
the same this is on so many levels dude, its making my head hurt
B: well its not so bad though cuz ur gonna die anyway so what would
it matter
Me: it's the realization where things click together and you realize
that you can't do a f-g thing except hope that some kind of miracle
occurs
B: but in the end you can't do a thing anyway
Me: never could…Why be self aware if this was destiny? Why know all
this just to die out like everything else does…it hurts me
B: you think about it to much
Me: It's become more recurrent, I try to not think about it, never
really clicked in my brain til today though.
B: instead of being afraid of it you gotta come to terms with it and
just see it as part of the life cycle
Me: You think something smarter will take our place? I could only
hope, I guess lol
B: smarter things already are here... they just do what they need to
survive instead of f-g with everything until they cause
destruction, and i also think animals are self aware also.

Went to work, had a few weird things happen. This lady came in and I knew what she wanted. By the time she got to the counter I had her cigarettes on the counter and she nearly went white and shouted out “HOW DID U KNOW WHAT I WANTED?!” I shrugged and said a ‘hunch’. Later in the evening I had to use the restroom. I went in there and was about to lock the door when I thought I heard my coworker shout my name. I open the door, coworker’s minding her own business, but I see KC! Awesome. All sorts of people I don’t know just started talking to me like they knew me. Wtf? That went on pretty much all shift. -_-;