Have this weird area near my Raidho tattoo, very pink, starting to get puffy/swollen. It’s happened before on the back of my calf, same leg.
9-17-2007
It’s gotten worse. Very puffy, although the gap in the R is not puffy at all, it seems to only be affecting my tattoo, and the area before it. Not painful, not itchy. No true sign of being bitten by anything. Took a picture of a spider bite I received recently to compare and contrast.
9-18 / 9-19 - 2007
I had a weird dream...and before then...I had a full body spasm. Maybe I'm just going nuts or something...
I don’t know what time it was or if I was dreaming (I might have, but don't remember), I was startled nearly awake by what felt like a full body shiver or shock. I say nearly awake because I couldn't really open my eyes after it, and went immediately back to 'sleep'. It was like someone used some kind of cattle prod or something on my spine...Scared the shit out of me, but I just fell right back asleep (which is kind of weird in and of itself)...So a while after that, I have this really weird dream, I'm at some big...place, I don’t know how else to describe it, I'm with my bf, but he gets taken off somewhere and I get really depressed about it, but a guy comes up to me, and for a moment he looks like my ex, but then changes to some guy I have no idea who it is, but it’s like he knows me and starts talking to me. He shows a weird kind of interest in me, and leads me off, talking about training for 'military', and I just nod and agree. He keeps going on about training, and then starts talking about emotions. After that I don't remember much of the dream, but I do remember running off, looking for my bf, or someone I knew, running past these strange creatures, trying to distract a person who was chasing after me, he catches up, and turns out to be friendly, wasn’t the guy from the beginning of the dream, but looked almost like him. He leads me to a hidden hallway, and leads me to a room, it's almost like those hallways in a doctors office, with all the doors and such. And there's a table...Not an examining table...it was decorated, and we stayed in there, he was teaching me ...i guess best word to use would be a ritual. I don't know what it was for, but that’s how it came across to me, he let me mess around with the tools and was guiding me into moving correctly...Halfway through I woke up.
Also, Injury on my left leg/ankle is fading fast; swelling has decreased, and now appears to be some kind of puncture wound there. It has become more bruised than anything. How can a ‘bite’ turn into a bruise?
(Ironically enough Raidho is Norse rune for Chariot/Wagon. It symbolizes: travel, journey, evolution, change of setting; seeking a larger perspective. Rhythm, both personal and worldly, dance of life) I was pulled to this rune when choosing for tattoos. I have Algiz on my other leg (Algiz Upside down peace sign without the Circle: Protection, a shield; The protective urge to shelter oneself or others. Defense; warding off of evil, shield, guardian. Connection with the gods, awakening, higher life. It can be used to channel energies appropriately.)
9-21-2007
Only remember 2 minutes of this dream. I’m in a conference room with a man, one of the two from the last dream, there’s a projection on the wall but I can’t see if it’s blank or there’s something up on it. I realize I’m wearing a hat and I remove it (wtf its one of those military hats), and the man looks at me and says “Thank you”. I get embarrassed and look at him, we end up staring for a few more minutes, then I wake up. I can't remember for the life of me what the color of his eyes were,
which is weird since I figure if you're staring at someones eyes
that long you'd get a good look at the color and remember it. I know
I was dreaming before this but I don’t know what I was dreaming about or what lead to this.
9-29-2007
I was tired as all hell about 8:36 PM. I recline in my chair, and I dozed off for a few minutes. I can normally sleep anywhere, but I was compelled to open my eyes, and i turned my head to the window, I don't know why, and I saw its face.. it had a big head, and its hands were pressed lightly against the window, big eyes...I initially just stared at it, suddenly my heart is racing like I just had the shit scared out of me, facing my computer screen, sitting straight up instead of slouching into the chair like I was when I started dozing off. I was confused and very frightened looking around, a little lost, until I saw the clock on the pc, which said 9 PM. WTF?
9-30-2007
Sinus issues and nosebleeds today -_-. This morning I was awoken by what I thought was a car driving up to my house, but it was like 3-4 am and I know my friends don’t disturb me around that time because for the most part I’m fast asleep. Spoke to Beca today, she’s hinting around that I might be having neurological issues. Also she ragged on me again about our first visit to Roswell (we went to the UFO event in ‘05), and how I was gone for about 3 ½ hours. This makes no freaking sense. Her grandmother had recently evicted some non-rent payers from a house she owned, so it was at the time uninhabited. So, we got to spend the weekend there in an empty house. Actually, it was very fun. I remember getting up one morning, deciding to grab a breakfast sandwich at McDonalds, which was only a minute or 3 away from the house. From what I remember her and my bf at the time were both asleep when I left. I changed my mind while I was driving and decided to head to the Roswell convention center and get some books and check out a few of the booths there. This took me no longer than an hour. I think I bought maybe 2 books, and decided to leave. I did go to McDonalds, ordered a sandwich and a large Root Beer. IIRC I ate the sandwich at McDonalds, but took the drink home, where Beca and my bf were waiting, very irritated with me. I don’t remember ever being out of the house for more than an hour or two at the most. But she swears up and down I was gone 3 ½ hours. Whaaa?
Had a sense of urgency to finish Communion (movie) today. I used to have the book but it disappeared, so I have not been able to read it. Tried 3 other times to watch the movie, all to no avail, I always stopped mid-2/3 of the way through. I was very close to shutting off the media player today. I had to step away and calm myself and go for a walk. I was watching it, I managed to overcome complete fear when the part with his first ‘experience’, when the grey (or rather orange) peeked around the door. Ok, check. Overcame that fear. Everything was going well, I was handling it, until the scene with that robotic creature with the spiral chest and weird hat entered his room, I nearly screamed and I had to pause it I was so fckin terrified, I even started to cry. I really thought I couldn’t handle watching it again. But after calming myself down and taking that walk (mystery in and of itself), I managed to get the courage to continue and I finally finished watching that blasted movie. Sooner or later I need to do the same with Fire in the Sky.
Now, about that walk. Like I said I was pretty upset with the movie, so I put my jeans back on and my sandals (I was in my Pajamas), and decided to walk to the store. I had posted a message on a message board saying I would be right back (it has a thing on it that tells you how long ago the last post was), and headed out. Now the store I walked to is a walk that takes no longer than 2-3 minutes, depending on your walking speed. I live right behind the store. Kid you not. Anyway, I get there, I’m sure I was only there for 10 minutes, seeing what kind of snack I want, and talking to my coworker. I head back and I sit back at the desk and post that I am back on the message board. I then look at when he posted, and the post above his was mine, the one where I said I would BRB, it was posted nearly 30 minutes from when I arrived back.
10-1-2007
I woke up this morning with a huge scratch on my right leg. It’s a very superficial scratch but it hurts deep, which makes no sense at all. Don’t recall any dreams. I keep waking up suddenly in the middle of the night; it takes me such a long time to fall back asleep. What the hell is going on?
10-3-2007
Haven’t been having any dreams during my sleep. Weird. I attempted to call a hypnotherapist but all I got was her answering machine. Bf and I have been falling apart lately, and today we started talking again. So that’s good. He said he is supportive of me, which is good too. I still feel like he’s forcing it a little but we’ll see. My co-worker and I saw something neat in the sky. It was heading southwest I think. I originally thought it was a star, but my thought was busted in half by the fact it was blinking. I watched it for a little, but it was moving extremely slow, weirdly enough slower than a plane. I brought my coworker out thinking he might know, but he had no idea and saw it blinking too, it had moved a little from where I first saw it, but nothing amazing. The lights were blinking like a pattern, no red or blue like on a plane/jet. I go back out 40 mins to an hr, it had moved a good distance, but still visible, for a minute. I kept an eye on it for a minute, and it disappeared. I came out after closing and it was nowhere. I dunno what it is, it could be man-made or something. Maybe a satellite. Interesting to see nevertheless.
10-04-2007
Have to take care of the cats for four days so, parents brought them by. All in all it’s been a quiet day
10-05-2007
Just woke up after a restless sleep. I blame the cats. I did have a dream though which is a change from all the non-dream nights I’ve had. Kept walking down this street to a bar, and I always went and hid in the back and watched TV. I was at another place though earlier, like a house but not really. Becca showed up with James, she was very pregnant, she had brought over a few things and was speaking to me, full of comfort and support. I can’t remember why, and normally she never acts that way which is even weirder. She dropped off a few things for me and headed out the door before me, so once I finished up doing whatever, I had to go find her. I walk back to the bar, munching on a sandwich that was pretty close to falling apart, I turn and on the street I see Vince with Nate, driving up the street. I wave and keep going. I’m almost to the bar and this androgynous person approaches me (I can’t tell if it’s male or female), and asks if I wish to purchase a lottery ticket or a scratcher. I politely tell it no and insist I do not gamble anymore. It keeps insisting I can win 2000 dollars but I shake my head and keep walking. As I walk off I can hear it muttering “But I need to find a bathroom”. I get to the bar, and go off in the back; it’s like a back room, almost empty, the walls are very white, there are interesting plants around the room, and a chair and TV. I sit on the chair, turn on the TV and wake up.
After coming home from work, I’ve remembered a few details of this dream. I wrote the points down more like bulletin points instead of complete sentences so I will try to put them back together again.
When I say bar, I thought it was a bar of some sort, because of the entrance. It was an open air entrance, with a bar-railing in front of the opening. I don’t remember anything inside though, except the bare room. The room was white…so white it was almost blinding. It looked as if there were some plant tendrils, like the ones you hang from the ceiling. Again, I do not remember the inside of the building. I entered and in a heartbeat I was in the white room. I sat on something, although when I entered again I could not find any chair, but I sat in where I thought the chair would be, and viola I sat upon an invisible chair.
I saw Nate and Vince in the car on the street heading the other way. They waved at me, but were generally not that great looking impersonators (IMO).
The androgynous person was tall and spindly, very thin, arms very, very skinny. I can’t remember if it had hair though.
The hypnotherapist called earlier today while I was at work. She had a family emergency but said she would try to call me Sunday or Monday to see what’s going on and discuss if its worth it. I need to see if she’s worth her salt.
10-08-2007
Woke up at 8:30 or so to my phone ringing. It was the hypnotherapist in Tularosa. Apparently she’s been doin hypnotherapy for 22 years or so. She wants $75 a session, and only goes to her Tularosa one on Wednesdays. I asked her about her beliefs in UFOs, she said she believes in them, she answered with a lot of emotion. I then asked her about abductees. She said she’s worked with two about 10 yrs ago, one was very true, while the other was “very murky”. So, she’s had some experience dealing with experiencers, but not enough to be biased. –I’ll write more later.
Funny bit of synchronicity just now. I was reading a Wiki for “UFO’s in Fiction”, mentioned an episode of Star Trek, titled "Tomorrow is Yesterday”. “The Enterprise is mistaken for a large UFO by the US Air Force, and almost shot down by a fighter jet” (A TOS episode). I thought I heard my parents coming up the drive so I turned off my monitor and looked out; no one was there, just a car passing by. I sighed and sat on the loveseat and turned on the TV. Once the commercial ended, G4 put Star Trek back on. The episode? Tomorrow is Yesterday. Effin weird!!
Just got back from Las Cruces. We left around 3:35-3:40. Normally when I go to Cruces or El Paso, and I am not driving I will “Nap”, although I’m sure technically it is not a nap. I’m aware, at least audibly aware, my eyes are closed and I believe now that I enter more of a trance/meditation state instead of napping. Today was one of the more weirder ones. I am not sure if it was a data download or my own mental processes unlocking hidden memories. I enter this state, and instead of relaxing, something 'clicks' on, I see brightness in my closed eyes. Soon I begin seeing planets, planets turning into galaxies, like I am traveling past them. Then in a flash I see a grey in front of me (thank you for letting me see you finally, I think to myself). Back to more planets and galaxies. It is very awe inspiring. I see shapes and symbols, but I can’t remember what they were. They were very blurry. In another flash, I see a tuft of hair, I can’t make it out, so it is shown to me several times, each time I can see more of it….it’s a baby!! Its hair is actually kind of long for an infant, and very wild. It is considerably smaller than a normal infant, I wondered if
something was wrong with it. A grey puts it in my arms, and I hold it for a time, until flash again, and it’s a mushroom cloud? What? I then realign myself and wake up.
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