entries May 19, 2008 - Early Feb 2009

May 19, 2008
 Last night I dreamed about how I had a baby and I was playin with him and he was very happy. Was wearin lil Spongebob pants. And I kept talking to him and tickling him and he’d get that big ole baby grin.

May 21, 2008

 I dreamed I was in a bookstore or something. I was looking at a book I read when I was younger. I decided to buy it. I turned around, and there was a guy right there! He was maybe my height or shorter, with short black hair and a nice face. We started talking and quickly became friends. He noticed marks on me and asked about them, but I couldn’t say anything, because I didn’t know. I think he knew. I don’t know why he’d point them out though. We get to the counter, and I had put the book up on it, ready to check out. The woman at the desk started doing something, and so I put my book in my bag. After a few minutes, it seemed like she didn’t know what she was doing, so the guy went behind the counter and started showing her. That guy was really smart!! He came back on my side of the counter and just stayed next to me. She became very irritated and started writing him up for something. It seemed as if she was being very discriminatory towards him, and it made me very angry. I snapped, and went off on her. She shut her mouth after that. We sat at a table, away from the counter and started talking some more. I don’t remember the questions, but the one answer from him still sticks out. He said, “I will be leaving tomorrow afternoon.” And I replied with, “Oh.” That’s all I can remember.

May 30, 2008
 I was in a stone building, it reminded me a bit like a castle but not so much.. and I went immediately to a room that I thought was mine.  a little bit later after getting comfortable
I went exploring and found a big room, reminded me of a dining hall, and I saw a group of people, so I went over to them and sat down... started talking with them and discussing stuff
 after a long while of that
 went outside because a few of them had to leave
and we were on a roof or something
but it was nice and flat, perfect for sitting and looking around, you know
 and these people went into ... I have to say, reminded me of a flying car
  I went to the back left 'door' and looked at the guy sitting there
  I had a ton of questions, and they all kinda blurted out, but I never really spoke them
  which was weird
  lol
  and he just looked at me and said it would be ok, that him and his friends had to go for awhile
  but they'd be back after a little bit
  and he called me Alex.
  and I looked at him
  and i said "My name isnt alex..."
  he said "I know."
  and the people around me had to point out that was my name, as I was apparently hiding my identity
  and they took off
  and we were all out on the roof
  it was weird, no one was all that spread out
  kinda kept to a group
  and it was darker than it was before, so we sat on the roof
  I was looking at the surroundings and how strange they were 
  but a few of these people would come up to me and say some things
  to remind me i was ... for lack of a better word
  incognito
  and I couldnt leave the area because it was too dangerous
  so i just kinda sighed and sat there still
  and I started seeing these people below... like they just emerged from out of nowhere
  and they, uh, started dancing or something
  it was really odd
  thats pretty much it

Feb 8, 2008

Long time no write. I've had several dreams since my last posting, but I thought I had lost my little 'diary' on here. I'm glad I've found it again.
When I moved back in with my parents after being fired from my previous job and evicted from the trailer, things got a little better, dream wise...sort of.
One of the dreams I had stood out, and still does. I can't tell if it was real or a dream, everything seemed so....well...intermixed? I saw a figure in the corner of my room, near the door. I couldn't tell if it had a definite shape, but it had this horribly evil vibe to it, I was so afraid of it, but I couldn't look away. The whole time, the fear was rising up, I felt like I was choking on it nearly. I managed to look away, to avert my eyes. I ended up looking at the TV screen. After a minute of me looking at the screen, a pair of red eyes appeared on it, staring at me. I jumped and gasped, and 'came to', no shadowy evil thing in the corner, no eyes on my TV screen. Everything as it was. Nothing changed in this 'dream state', everything was exactly where it is in real life. 

I dreamed of meeting a woman in a forest type area, she was very old, dare I say timeless, but took on the appearance of a younger woman, because she claimed she looked better that way. We followed a trail for a while, and I felt like a child again, which was welcome. We reached a clearing with about 3-4 portal type things. I looked at them all, and in a flash, I saw one of the portal's...details.. from beginning to the end. I decided to choose that portal. Answering a question she might have silently asked, I told her I would rather know what was to happen... I think maybe the portals might have been multi dimensional...